I do have very high confidence now ever since I became my own best friend. That sounds a bit weird, I know. I am happy with my own company, I never speak negatively of myself. Never. Do not allow this. That is your first step. I just love who I am because I am as true to myself as I can be, despite some pressures to sway away from that sometimes. Everyday I think positively of myself as soon as I look in the mirror - it’s become a habit. It can even be something as small as my nails look nice or else I carried myself really well in a situation. If I don’t look so great one day, I kind of laugh it off because we all have those days. And I do something to make myself feel better about my physical appearance whether it’s makeup, working out, doing a facial mask, painting my nails, etc. If I made a mistake on something, I learn from it and force myself to go easy on myself (which can be hard to do) since I never intentionally try to be hurtful, deceitful, etc. I also like to smile a lot - I find that smiling at others and being nice to others makes me feel the best. I have become a genuinely happy person because I feel more connected with others.
Now, these small things that I have made into habits have made me my #1 fan, and it’s incredible. I try my best to not take BS from people and to demand respect. Sometimes I stumble and let others get in my head (especially if it’s a romantic, friend, or familial relationship), but I actively try to STOP letting others influence my thoughts negatively. It’s come to the point where I cannot allow toxic influences into my space.
Now addressing your current situation with your husband. There may be something entirely different going on in his head. Or it may be very relevant. Whatever is happening, you need to have open communication with him because thoughts fester and small issues become much bigger. He is your husband after all, and if he’s worth his salt (which I am sure he is), he will want to work with you on this issue. I cannot say much else about that because I am really just an outsider looking in on 0.0001% of the situation. What I can say is that when you begin to treat yourself like gold, you won’t less others treat you any less. I hope things start looking up for you. xxx